Friday, March 30, 2007 ♣
i don't wanna hear the sounds of bikes
i don't wanna see ur 'type' of bikes ard
i don't wanna be reminded of you
cause i fear i may fall harder.
my heart bets painfully in the night
raw emotions flowing thru
i can't stop it
i cant prevent it
i took a leap forward
den a step again
it's ur move next
but how long will i be waiting.
m here & i saw u
ur thr, did you see me
n i wonder who shall make the next move?
i'll cry if u left before i do
without even saying a Hi
thr's a gap in my heart
it feels so hollow
i can feel the wind passing thru
n sorrow coming thru
i gotta stop before i blurt out more nonsense
sometimes girls can be pathetic...
wanting something tat is not within their grasp but running from something that is standing right in front of them..
tat's wat i am.
a walking contradiction.
1:03 AM
Thursday, March 29, 2007 ♣
tis is wat i did today:
You Are An Ash Tree
--> You are vivacious and impulsive, which makes you extremely attractive to many.
--> Intelligent and demanding, you don't care much for criticism.
--> You have a ton of ambition and talent, and sometimes money rules your heart.
--> You like to play with fate, and you can be very egotistical and restless.
--> Demanding of attention, you need love and a lot of emotional support.
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Gemini - Your Love Profile
1)Your positive traits:
--> Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.
--> You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.
--> You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you.
2)Your negative traits:
--> You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.
--> You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.
--> Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems.
3)Your ideal partner:
--> Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.
--> Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.
--> An open minded person, who's willing to have a non-traditional relationship.
4)Your dating style:
--> Exciting.
If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy.
5)Your seduction style:
--> Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.
--> Ultra kinky - you do stuff that's not even in books yet.
--> Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing.
6)Tips for the future:
--> Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.
--> Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.
--> Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time.
Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow
Best day for a date: Wednesday
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You Are 60% Open Minded
--> You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
--> Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
--> But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
--> You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.
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You Are The Lovers
--> You represent ideal love: innocence, trust, exhilaration and joy.
--> You demonstrate the harmony of opposites, two sides coming together.
--> At times, you also represent the struggle between what is right and what is tempting.
--> Control is an issue for you, especially when you don't know your reasons for choosing something.
Your fortune:
--> You have an important choice you need to make about love, and it will be a difficult choice to make.
--> You are likely struggling between the love you crave and the love that is right.
--> In the end, you will choose what you crave, even if it's bad for you. Because without what you crave, you will feel empty and incomplete.
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You Are 32% Spoiled
--> You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.
--> You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.
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Never Date a Leo
--> Dramatic, egotistical, and emotional - a Leo is way too high maintenance for you!
--> And forget about a quick fling with an alluring Leo. It's either everything or nothing with this sign!
--> Instead try dating: Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces, or Cancer
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see wat bored ppl do...
today is payday but i dunno whether m getting paid though...
*shy* to ask... lol...
well we shall wait till 5th den to know...
or else.... m screwed for tis comin mth!
no money = less fun!
pic of the day:
i wanna be on that ferris wheel & watch the sun sets,
with you by my side.
with you by my side.
much love!
Dewi
10:34 AM
tarot cards are interesting...
but my readings.... somehow, i wanna believe yet at the same time, dun wish for it to happen..
i gotta shut my mouth sometimes...
words juz come out...
n regrets come flowing in..
n guess who's not online?
it's like 1.38am.m tired. n i haven started on my presentation for later.
i'm screwed.
ha. wats new?
anyone knows whr i can get helium-filled balloons?
i longed for stars n sunrise gazing..
i longed for you to want me...
n now i shall wait..
and i'm feeling bouts of sadness.
tis sucks.
Dewi
1:19 AM
Wednesday, March 28, 2007 ♣
*edited*
i'm going back to sch later! finally!
n i have to submit all the reports by 2morrow!
so ain't gonna be at dance 2nite...
probably be coming for B Classes on fri? starts @ 8.30.. so i won't have to rush...
damn freaking rusty man...
my menses hasn't come since Jan! tat'll make me 2 mths 'pregnant'?!
no wonder m like pms-ing every other day... tat's wat not havin regular menses does to ya!
hahaha... excuse me for being bitchy everyone... :P
currently, life has been ok...
not lacking in anything...
but still miss Mr Funk!
thanx for calling from Taiwan!
m gonna dread looking at the hp bill.
i wish i can go on a trip now!
but attachment prevents me... hai...
but m heading somewhr ard June... short trip but at least somewhr i've never been to...
k now, m hungry....... someone feed meeeeeeeeee...
i want to go to Settlers' Cafe n Cafe Del Mar!
i have tis weird fear of riding those bikes... not all.. but only 1 kind...
actually find the bigger bikes kinda cool...
oh well.. i prefer to be in a vehicle dat enclosed me in...
so today, gotta:
1)Check out Laptop fair
2)Return TT dvd
3)Read Tarot Cards
4)Finish QM
weekend plans for now:
1) Watch movies wif Darling
2) Chill Out wif .......
3) Eatz Out wif FDTK..
4) Dates? hahah.. we'll see how!
wonder when will i get my pay?
my wishlist! :
*converse natural low cut
*new slick+power specs lappie
*new dress
*new peep-toe high heels
*new bags
*lose 8kg by nov
*decide on my Uni path
*go overseas for a longer holiday (1wk or more!)
*have more fun!
tat's wat i want for now! not much rite... see i not tat greedy wat....
till den!
Love love!
Dewi
9:26 AM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007 ♣
kinda hook on the song at the moment...
5:06 PM
Monday, March 19, 2007 ♣
i think... m really givin up...
we dun have anything in similar so far...
n partly, i dun wan to do anymore chasing... it's tiring...
sometime y do i even bother playing games wif people who clearly does not even know how?
does he like me? tat i can't answer confidently.
btw, whoever wanna make new fren, can call tis no-- .. email me if ya wanna tat no!
hahah... some guy wanted new fren so i 'helping' him advert..
gd riddance!
for now, lets juz stop wif all the guy games and enjoy life before my 20 birthday...
oh yea.. Mr Funk is off to taiwan for the whole of next mth.
well boy... enjoy u 21ST there with the cheena babes aite and take care doing all the 'man' stuff!
hahah... now dun go and get a mistress while u're there!
till den..
wish upon a star.
Dewi
2:42 AM
Thursday, March 15, 2007 ♣
Yesterday was my 1st day at work..
packaging co in tuas...
boring ah...
had to do production work in the morn den go to the office in the afternoon..
the office colleagues were not bad... they treat me lunch..
v.sian..
sms-ed Mr. Southpark the whole day yesterday..
den he added me on msn & we chat till like 2..
i dun wan to say he's boring but i dun feel stimulated when we talk.
mly called berbual kosong.
maybe it's juz me.
m naturally so random sometimes.
well, aite! most of the time.
maybe i confessed to soon?
wat has done cannot be undone anyway.
juz move on.
went to the gym wif Miss Minah after work..
before tat my dad picked me up from J.P. & ate the Tom Yam Mee Suah which was damn delicious!
didn't run on the treadmill but did a lot of the fast walk exercises...
i was happy i sweat..
i turn sweating out in proper attire makes me feel happy...
endophines was released afterall :-)
should make this a weekly routine..
gonna go back to Tuas at 1pm later...
m like so tired now... hahah...
till den..
Dewi
12:36 PM
Tuesday, March 13, 2007 ♣
maybe i'll make it a daily blog every nite cause after all i still log on to the net every nite & no one knows bout tis blog it seems...
oh well...
kept in contact wif Mr Southpark again...
Thanx Mr FuzzyWuzzy!
Mr FuzzyWuzzy is like my fav. boy at the moment in the IHP r0om!
2morrow @ 7.45am i shall have to be at boon lay mrt...
start of my IAP program..
pros: gettin paid + experience
cons: tuas area+"mature" colleagues+early wakin hrs.
oh well... lets see how i'll survive...
the work m suppose to do actually seem quite tough..
hopefully i can do a good job by the end of 2.5 mths..
attachment is until aug...
n no eye candy to boot!
how will i survive! how ?! how?! how?!
hahaha...
till den..
Life has been Good... Amin..
Dewi
11:45 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007 ♣
drove to sch today..
but like only me, Miss Hootz & Mr.7-11 was in the lab...
Miss Twin had a funeral to attend.. the rest went to KL..
so boring...
went west coast for lunch but all shops were closed.. so headed to clementi & ate kfc..
was worried in a way that i'll "accidentally" bump into Mr Southpark..
but luckily did not...
but dun think it was either relieved or sad...
watched Nodame Cantibile & it was good!...
went to Mr FuzzyWuzzy's place @ Bishan afterwards...
the guys decided to watch 300 @ Vivo today...
dun feel like it...
oh when will i cheer up again?
till den...
Dewi
4:58 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007 ♣
*edited*
so i did the confession after prom...
2nd March 2007.
he did contacted me for 2 days.. and den it has since been silence..
guess he doesn't like me back huh..
secretly like him for 4 yrs.. i think
i read somewhr that i takes 3 times as long to forget about someone..
so tat'll take me ard 12 yrs?
ha!
Mr. Bballer case was luckily about 2 yrs?
so 6 yrs..
4 yrs had passed..
so i'm left wif 2 more yrs?
saw him once at my dance production last yr and i still feel a slight "pain" seeing him..
so maybe it's true?
guess time shall heal all wounds..
but for now, i shall hate:
1. seeing fast food delivery bike
2. motorbikes like those typical mly boys ride on
3. clementi area
4. prom pictures
till den, dun piss me off!
emo la!
Dewi
12:00 AM