My wkplace.



Walking Contradiction.
11:49 AM



emo @ 3 am. minah style.




Walking Contradiction.
2:53 AM



it's u that i want.

car rides for today.
Hm - JP - West Coast Park - Changi - Expo - Simpang Bedok - BB - Hm.
absolutely love.
bestie, wads wrong?

i wan more car rides.
m loving it.
pics?
lackin. busy driving la.

not looking forward to attachment later.
been a good girl over the wkend.
i like it.
i feel gd.
sometimes the goodness in me have to take over.
else, m gonna go totally insane 24/7 and no more juz wkend 'disease'.
Ha!
do u guys know wad m talkin bout?
Go figure.

LOTSA LOVE n HUGS
DEWI

Walking Contradiction.
12:53 AM



63/100

(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) done weed
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(x) drank something alcohol

SO FAR: 3

( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight.

SO FAR: 4

(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
(x) gone out on a blind date

SO FAR: 6

(x) had a crush on an older person
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
(x) seen someone/something die

SO FAR: 9

(x) had/have a crush on one of your FRIENDSTER friends
( ) been to Paris
( ) been to States
(x) been on a plane
(x) thrown up from drinking

SO FAR: 12

(x) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(x) been mosh pitting

SO FAR: 14

( ) been in an abusive relationship
(x) taken pain killers
(x) love/like someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( ) made a snow angel

SO FAR: 17

( ) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up

SO FAR: 21

(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( ) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school

SO FAR: 25

(x) used a fake/someone else's ID
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( ) killed a snake

SO FAR: 27

(x) been tickled
( ) been robbed/vandalized
( ) robbed someone
(x) been misunderstood
( ) pet a reindeer

SO FAR: 29

(x) won a contest
(x) been suspended from school
(x) had detention.
( ) been in a car/motorcycle accident

SO FAR: 32

(x) had/have braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 35

(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) pole danced
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes

SO FAR: 40

(x) squashed barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( )been to the opposite side of the world
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying.

SO FAR: 43

(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
( ) recently coloured with crayons/colored, pencils/markers.
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins

SO FAR: 47

(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( ) kissed in the rain

SO FAR: 50

( ) written a letter to Santa Clause
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) watched the sun rise with someone you care/cared about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach

SO FAR: 51

(x) crashed a party
( ) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(x) gone roller skating/ blading
(x) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey

SO FAR: 54

(x) worn pearls
( ) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" at a sport game.
( ) swimming with dolphins

SO FAR: 55

( ) got your tongue stuck to a pole/freezer/ice cube
( ) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sex clothes
(x) sat on a roof top

SO FAR: 57

(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) can do a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night

SO FAR: 60

( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
(x) climbed a tree
( ) had/been in a tree house
( ) aren't scared to watch scary movies alone.

SO FAR: 61

(x) believe in ghosts
(x) have/had more than 30 pairs of shoes
( ) gone streaking
( ) been in jail

SO FAR: 63


i've done 63 things out of 100 stuff in my life.

m havin a life.
seriously.
i have no idea.

Dewi

Walking Contradiction.
12:06 AM



I got a new hp!



Walking Contradiction.
3:32 PM



Love u guys!



Walking Contradiction.
3:43 AM



My lappie



Walking Contradiction.
5:30 PM



summer love. bullshit.

sorry. but i so feel a need to vent.

fuck.fuck.fuck.fuck.FUCK.fUCk. yoU.

rain or no rain.
i fEel so fuck.
i wonder how u can make me feel so much with 1 simple action.

fuCk me. am i so weak.
people affects me.

iDiot! idiOt!
probably headin back to use LJ.

Walking Contradiction.
12:34 AM



a jerk.

a jerk. define a jerk.
i know lotsa jerks. but dun worry, none is my frens.
they just only happen to be ones tat i like.

life is good.
love life sucks.

umpteen times i said m gonna move on.
i still aint moving.
roadblock.
my feelings.

y u said those things u said.
when i think we may moving forward.
it aint happening again.

tis is the 2nd time.
should have taken a hint.

i shall not say thanx for being in my life once.
cause u were never in it.

goodbye.
and i mean it tis time.


Walking Contradiction.
11:24 PM



Weekend

Fridays , Saturdays are love!

Went Driving wif Miss Fishballer on Friday and we had Popeyes! whr?
CHANGI! YEA! i finally drove there! hahaha...
LOOOOOve the mashed PotAtoes and fries. hate the chicken. *bluek*

i love airplanes! i dunno y... i juz do!

saw 1 of the Mr Musketeer @ Redhill... QIQILALA!
he tembam! gd gd! hahah...
got hm ard 4.30 pluss....

habit gettin hm late on wkends man...

Saturday went shopping wif the Sis.
Bought quite a no of stuffs.
Met up wif Mr FuzzyWuzzy & frens after Dinner @ Valley Point Starbucks.
bet no u guys dunno whr is tat rite! hahaha...
who was there...
hmm... let me recall..

*only tis time real names are bein disclosed*hey i cant think of so many nicknames!*

Matin,Hazmi,Hasri(i think?), Desmond, Jess, Big Jess, Liyana, Joyce and Zarin.
Played dumb mind games la.
dun ask. later i show ya.
got a headache la.
but lotsa laughter! i loike!

den we went esplanade.
lee, Jess and Hasri had to leave 1st..
den left wif 6 of us (Big Jess, Matin, Hazmi, Joyce, ME & Matin's fren Padz?)
we went Clark Quay McDs were ANOTHER of Matin's fren joined Marilyn
she pretty u know.. hahah...
eh Matin, u lotsa fren ah... illegal gathering!

oh! saw Miss RockOn! from my sec sch! my eng teacher back in e old days! hahah!
She still the same la... hahah... she recognise but doubt she remembers my name! :P

afterwards went MOS area to meet Zarin who juz ended his shift at Starbucks.
we went to Spize but before that we got lost. hahah.. oh well.. still fun la...

too bad no cams that nite...

had food in my tummy
makes yatie a happie mummy!
hahahah!

went back wif sis afterwards and got hm ard 4 odds?

woke up early on sun for work...
and was so freakin hungry la eventhough i had like Beef Horfun at 3 plus in the morn!
bought Hokkien Mee ( I love! ) for brunch..

had sushi ard evening somemore...
seriously freakin glutton la..

went hm straight.
but a phonecall from someone ruined my happy trip back.
so emo, went hm and ate a packet of beef steak.
fuck la.
did i mention i have constipation for the past 3 days!
i got bottomless pit ah!?

m hungry now.. pics up later!

*edit: the internet connection @ my wkplace sucks la!!
really no civilisation here! *bluek!


Walking Contradiction.
12:35 PM



no aim.

omg.
i'm so sian.

i wanna drive 2nite. go where? i also dunno. si bei sian.

i wanna slack. wif ppl i like. no club 2nite. i dun wan.

but i lazy go out also. hahah. walking contradiction!

till den..

love Dewi

Walking Contradiction.
2:09 PM



maria...

watched 200 pounds of beauty
n i actually cried..
omg. the movie portraits the life of the ugly and fat so true la!
can relate.

things happen.
weekend fools.
sushi.tcc.coffeeclub.marina.vivo.shop.bike rides.ecp.mos.esplanade.
good n bad.
friends r loves.

wish more chill out crazy moments rather than hype out crazy moments.

when u get high, u do stupid stuff.

a guy got my no again.
tat makes him the 4Th.
for this yr.
i used to be flattered.
but not anymore.
is my frens givin out my no?
cause em always says
'i got ur no from my fren/my fren's fren'
apparently tat fren loses his name when being questioned.

wat if my no is written somewhr that the public can see?!
omg!
if you guys ever see it, do help me erase!!!
bugger..

wkend ahead.
n already m not lookin forward to it.




Walking Contradiction.
10:30 PM



blah blah blah

shit la..
i juz msg Mr. Southpark.
n m hyperventilating by myself in the office.

i need to scream n run now!
kns! kns!

i need a new hp.
tis one is gonna get me in trouble sooner than later.
ha!
n i blame it on the hp!

shit shit shit!
i so wanna bang my head against the wall.
but i dun wanna disfigured this creation of art.
so i won't.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alamak. pathetic la.
i so hope no one read tis.

*edit*
pardon me for the nonsensical mutterings of a psycho stuck in a 'box-like-office'.
m calm now...
n e finished piece i juz did...


i seriously need to get a toyboy.

cheeRs!
DeWi

Walking Contradiction.
2:31 PM



move along

i need to ask ya.
but i fear to dial ur no.
oh wait.
i deleted your no again.

all this time, i wanna truly believe ya
but i doubt every single word u said.
should have trusted my instinct.
now look who has gotten hurt
n for sure it ain't you boy.

i wonder what's on ur mind all these while.
do u even know the turmoil i went thru.
i dunno wassup wif u boy.
u put honey words in my ears.
but actions do speak louder than words.
n there was none of it ever.

i thought we could have a future.
but fate tells otherwise.
my dear fren wonder whether i'll ever fall in love.
i wonder too u know.

it hurts to fall.
m hurtin now.
so did i fall.
it's not mutual.

even if i dun move on.
the world does.
i dun wanna be left behind.

so i pick myself up.
put on a smile.
n move along.

Walking Contradiction.
11:11 AM



lalalla

i whisperered thank you while turning the photo album
always,always in my heart, a person who encourages me
On any days, clear sky or raining, that same smile emerges on your face
even when my memories of you fades away
i would search through my mind again
and on days when i recall you in my memories, tears flow endlessly

wishing to the stars to be with you again, this has become my new habit
when i look up to the sky during sunset, i'm searching for you in my mind
whenever i'm feeling sad or happy, i recall that smile
If you can see me from where you are now
i will believe we will meet again someday, and i'll go on with my life

i'll be lonely, i'll be missing you
still have feelings left for you
i want to see you

guess what song tis from..
n it ain't in english

Walking Contradiction.
1:58 AM



a jerk.

m eating a crunchie bar.
and those who knows me, knows i dun eat chocolate bars ever.

n m feeling depress. well not really depress...

i pig out when m absolutely frustrated!

gawd.. i hate myself for being so pathetic over a guy.
a guy who absolutely have EVERY idea of wat m feeling for him.

vented out my frustrations on food.
ordering pizza n stuff n m fcukin eating it alone.

tat's all.
till m better, dun get pissed if i keep muttering to myself.
how more psycho can i get?!


love no one, till someone says they do.
Dewi


*edited*
i ordered pizza n wings juz now. n m eating it alone.
fuck.
pardon my language.

Walking Contradiction.
3:15 PM

m two-o.
Goes by the name of Yatie or Dewi
Juz gonna write whatever comes to my mind.
Ain't gonna keep it in me anymore.
Let the tales unfold and juz be random aite.

fubarnkiss@hotmail.com

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